How to be a human being
Our job sometimes is to know complete strangers better than they know themselves… here is your disease, this is what’s inside, your anatomy is this, this is the disease process and what to expect. The human body is this incredible thing that on a physiological level continues to blow my mind day in and day out. Maybe that’s what keeps us coming back again and again - what we don’t know, and crave to know, fascinates us over and over again.
Working 16-18 hour days, getting minimal sleep, working a month of nights and only seeing my boyfriend in passing or once a week at the most… it doesn’t seem sustainable, or “worth” it. But we can’t see it as worthy versus not worthy - sacrificing loved ones, your health, your youth - how can that ever be considered worthy of sacrificing?
Shifting our perspective to - what am I learning? What am I taking away from each day to be better, do better? How will I serve my future patients and work towards taking care of them to the best of my ability? What has God gifted me with and what purpose has he placed on me?
The constant revolving door of consults and admits can become exhausting - but after meeting each person, hearing their story, they become someone’s mother/father/sister/brother/loved one whom I am honored to meet and care for… constantly bringing me back to earth. They don’t tell you, but this process of learning and becoming your own physician surgeon is the art of becoming more human.
You’ll make a difference - you just have to decide what kind of difference you want to make.