Transitioning into Residency
But also exciting. #Allofthefeelings.
Our program coordinator emailed us the other day notifying us about the fourth year medical students coming to audition with us in July. It's crazy that that was me just a year ago - feels like just yesterday, and yet a lifetime away.
Fourth year was filled with a lot of unknown, driving sometimes up to 16 hours straight, living in a different state every month, and constantly adapting to different people/circumstances/weather/etc etc. It was a lot of discomfort and figuring out a way, and why they allow you to struggle is to prepare you for intern year.
Fast forward to the present: from moving states, making new friends, exploring a new place I call home, and settling into that home - part of me is so ready to jump into this process that I know will be a steep learning curve. The other part of me wants to hide out on the mountains for a while.
There will be feelings of doubt, fear, the unknown (a lot), and there's this little thing about being called doctor - which is both great but terrifying because you realize just how much is at stake. Because you will be asked tons of questions and have expectations that you cannot meet yet amidst all of the other unknown (both knowledge and logistical since you're getting used to the hospital, computer, putting in orders, etc).
Medicine is the privilege of caring for others' friends, sisters, brothers, mothers, and significant others...but we are these things in our lives as well. By understanding that we have different roles that all culminate into who we are as people, we realize we don't always have to compartmentalize. That is what makes me stronger: when I am me as a whole being.
Part of this is also deciding on your self care list. For me, there are spiritual, mental, physical, and relationship aspects to that list - whether it be something as simple as making sure I drink at least 60oz of water daily, to making meaningful phone time with loved ones - scheduling it so it happens.
Choosing to prepare is something that helps take some of the stress away. It's a way to decrease the number of many, many decisions you have to make that wear down on you - like putting your keys in the same place every day, having healthy meals at home, or having set routines like gym right after work before going home. There will be so many decisions and tasks to do in a day that it will be inconceivable, but decision fatigue will be less of an issue if you have a stable routine that keeps you grounded.
Starting from day 1, I'll be writing down one thing a day that I'm grateful for, why I'm excited about medicine, what I'm learning, or something that made an impact on me. Ready to join me on this crazy journey?